you are

my best friend and the only one I can rely on in this world anymore. I never would have imagined we’d come this far, from barely talking to hanging out on your bed together eating dinner and laughing. You are literally my most favorite person to see and talk to, and without you I don’t know where I would be. You, sir, have made senior year into something special. Because of you I have somewhere to go, someone to talk to. I’ve become so comfortable around you, I feel like I don’t have to pretend, I feel safe and happy and I don’t ever want to leave you. Your arms are where I want to linger, in your hugs I feel home. 

I hate it when I hear people say bad crap about you. It hurts me probably more than it hurts you. I hate being told that you are a whore and that you don’t care about me. What the hell? that obviously far from the truth. I wish people would understand that you arn’t someone I can just get over, some people like her will never understand. I’m just going to keep standing by you, one day you will realize what is right in front of you. When we are living in an apartment together 2 years from now, having the time of our lives together, people will wish that they had the kind of connection we have. Maybe it will be then when we become more than best friends.

you are everything good in my life, please don’t ever walk out of my life. I know you still love him but a part of me is holding on to the hope that, that person you want but can’t have is me. I keep hoping that you think you can’t have me because you think I’m not interested. I wish I could get the balls to just tell you, but I don’t want to ruin what we have now. I’ve worked so hard and waited so long to come this far.