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I can’t make you look into my eyes and feel something that isn’t there. But what I can’t understand is why that feeling isn’t there for you. Why can’t you love me? Why can God make me feel so strongly for one human being who will never have the same intense feeling? I wish I understood God’s plan for me, I wish I knew why he had me fall in love with you.
I should tell you my feelings. Maybe you would love me back. try and make something work. If I told you how I felt maybe you would stop breaking my heart, because I don’t even think you realize you have my heart..I mean, I understand, I gave it to you years ago. It’s easy to forget about.
But with telling you my feelings I run the risk of you leaving me, or even worse, hating me. I couldn’t handle that.
I just wish that you were mine. I wish I could be the one to save you. take you away from your pain. I wish I could put my arm around you or rest my head on your chest and you would hold me, wrap your arms around my body. I wish you would hold me there and bend over and whisper into my ear that you love me. What I wouldn’t do to be yours…..
People have told me I’m meant to be the one to “change” you but those same people tell me to leave you. I can’t leave you, you are my best friend and I am yours. Hopefully I will “change” you. Hopefully I can be the first and only girl you will ever date, because I’m a stupid little girl who dreams of marrying you one day. please don’t tell me that idea is too far fetched.
